Commonplace
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www.common-place.org · vol. 12 · no. 2.5 · February 2012
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Poetic Research Department

Statement of Poetic Research


Geoffery Waterman
A Voice Inside My Own


Anne was oppressed and it is difficult for me to write her. I don't want to oppress her further and when I write her I feel sometimes her pressing back on me and this awareness of pressure is important if I want to write Anne because finding her Spirit or Soule among the words that she inhabits. She inhabits the words that are her speaking.


I desire to speake one word befor you proceed:

What law have I broken?

What breach of law is that

to speak what they would have me to speak


I speak not of

expressinge any Unsatisfaction


I must keep my conscience.


I desire to hear God speak

I desire to speak to our teacher.


Now if you do condemn me for speaking what in my conscience I know to be truth

speake playnelye whether you thinke

I must either speak false or true in my answer.


I desire you to speake

to that place

the meanness of the place

I came first to fall into

my Imprisonment


I fear I shall not remember it whan you have done.


If one shall come unto me in private, and desire me seriously

comes to me in a way of friendship privately

come in the flesh

open it unto me


I will willingly submit

what rule have I to put them away?

the elder women should instruct the younger

in a way of friendship


I then entertain the saints

I entertain them that fear

I entertain them, as they have dishonoured their parents I do


Do you think it not lawful for me to teach women?

If one shall come unto me


a friend came unto me

I had set my hand

I had not my hand

held them unlawful

held before as you


In what faction have I joined with them?


did I entertain them against any act

What breach of law is that Sir?


I hear no things laid to my charge

I did not come hither to answer to questions of that sort.


If I sound repetitive I'm repeating Anne. Anne repeating words repeated in text before as "proceedings" or transcripts in copied forms and reprinted in books and taken and retaken down, especially in the case of the trial "before the Church in Boston" because the text that is still here as a Body is a copy made by Ezra Stiles. This was then copied and put in books but those people who copied were not good spellers. Copies are a spell bound in text.


So I'm again copying here and maybe I'm a better speller but if you copy someone's mistakes doesn't that mean you made a mistake? I don't want to make a mistake. I don't want an Argumentum ad nauseum because that is an argument based on the fallacy that just because something is repeated makes it right. I don't want Anne to just repeat. I want Anne to reappear.


conscience, Sir.


An oath SirSir, but
when they preachSir prove it
breach of law

is that
law is that Sir?
No Sir,
Prove this then Sir
You know Sir
Name one Sir.
what he doth declare though he doth not know himself
in regard of myself I could,pray Sir
That's matter of conscience,
No Sir
I do not believe that
Ey SirEy Sir
Yes Sir.

I do fear the

matter of conscience,

as they do


If it please you by authority to put it down I will freely let you for I am subject to your authority.


What I can't name often lives at the back of my mouth in Spirit and it's distracting to me because I can't deal with not saying what I want to say. When I can't say it makes me stop.


Writing is different I have a dictionary and a thesaurus and I can get lost in meaning and connections between words but saying is different. If I stop there is a time expectation and this makes me anxious so even more I can't speak and the words' Body is lost and Spirit is lost and Soule is lost and the words get swallowed up. So if there's a passage of time where someone is quiet for a hundred years is a lot of words getting swallowed up and lost and how many survive. If there's almost four hundred years words swallowed. Not tinny satellite delay. Not musty book delay. Not can't say not wasn't said not thought better about. Words taken away. Like the Bodies and Soules, the Bodies lying in the Grave rising agayne gives me the creeps resurrection words. Saying words that have a history carries that history carries the anxious expectation out of the Grave where it was lost. Now the word reaches and touches my ears unwarmly brutish. I am not familiar. I sit down and word by word come together.


Redemption is not Resurrection. Reread is not Rewrite is not Respeak. Speaking is never vayne conversation because it is Speaking and not Respeaking even if its Body dies not the Soule or the Spirit. Certain things go on living whether or not they're written and whether they're spoken they stay with you. Their Body dies but tell me their Soule dies.


the Body that dyes shall rise agayne

but what Body shall rise


prove that both soule and body are saved?



I am redeemed

inquire for Light

in private.

in the sight of God


Though I never doubted that

the Soule was Imortall yet …


did not come to

inquire for Light


see fadeth away like a Beast.

in the sight of God


And I see more Light a greate deal by

God indeed,

it is cleare to me or God by him hath given me Light.

I doe thanke God that I better see

for I never kept my Judgment from him.


I think the soule to be nothing but Light.

Yes I doe, takinge Soule

for Light

returned to God indeed, but the Soule dyes


The Spirit is immortall indeed

but prove that the Soule is.


the Soule dyes

the spirit that God gives returnes

returnes to God that gave it.

Castinge the soule into Hell


there was none with me but myself

I took Soule for Life.


I thank the Lord I have Light


It's important to speak about God when you're speaking about Anne. The magistrates deciding Anne's sentence thought Anne said God spoke to her, but they did not believe God spoke to her. I don't mean they didn't believe in God because they did. Maybe they were frightened of believing God spoke to Anne. Frightened of believing God was that sort of God that could speak to Anne. Anne is speaking to me and I'm trying to write Anne but it is difficult.


answer me this

to prevent such aspersions


Being much troubled to see the falseness

I came afterwards to the window

wherein he shewed me the sitting of the judgment and the standing of all high and low

he showes that he dyes

he hath let me see which was the clear


But now having seen him which is invisible

I do not remember that I looked upon

writings you should see


though there be a sufficient number of witnesses

Shew me whear thear is any

answer before you


let me see


It is more than I know.

I desire you to answer


proves it that speakes soe.


If there was witchcraft involved recall those and the witchcraft inside Soules. It must be that sort of witchcraft if we can say one atom acts and another atom miles miles away they act that is empathy which is witchcraft. These are Soules how they have a connection to being so it is a connection to everything which you cannot waste.


Do not be afraid of when they tell you it is witchcraft I would tell you, Anne. Witchcraft is the Soule in aggression in assertion also it is in passion. The Soule messy risks obedience and if you wait the interpretation drags you under in its husbandry. Cleanly speech falls under the heading of prophesy and is not subject to control. If you choose in your speech this arrangement reaches more easily and acts and connects to speech more these parts of speech you hardly control like predicate and deixis. Anne is here. I hear her.


So to me by an immediate revelation.


the voice of Moses

said

bring proof of these things


the voice of John Baptist

said

I find things not to be as hath been alledged


the voice of antichrist

said

but that is to be proved first.


Do you think it not lawful

and why

this is a free will offering


if you do condemn me for speaking

for I am subject to your authority.



for all those voices are spoken of in scripture

those voices are

of my own heart


those voices are


Obliterated }


what hath bine spokin

it shall rise,


but what Body shall rise,

if he be not united to our fleshly Bodies, than those Bodies cannot rise.


held them

fleshly Bodies

have I joined with them?


whan I sayd I had pleaded for them as much as others

I ment only in seekinge Comfort from them.





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